What Has Yet to Be Said About Zimmerman

I didn't have anything to say after George Zimmerman won his trail and Trayvon Martin was found guilty of being something scary, bad, and violent posthumously. It was sad and I knew that there were more clever and articulate folks who would say something I could Amen. So I've heard how we need to combat this fear and criminalization of our black youth, and how this case empowered racists to shoot our sons, and I listened to discussions about internalized racist oppression, systemic racism in our criminal justice system, and everything else you read, posted, talked about, and listened to.
It seems like we largely figure George Zimmermans actions to be racist either consciously or subconsciously and that he will likely live in fear for quite some time. There seems to be a kind of latent expectation that he's now a more empowered racist and feels quite justified in his choice of a course action that night. I wonder what if that isn't true, what if nearly instantly, or shortly after he regretted all that he did. What if he can't get the images and screams of young Trayvon out of his mind and longs to fall at the feet of that boy's parents, and America and sincerely apologize.
What if that we're the case then? I think we'd have an incredible story to use to combat what the thinking of those like Zimmerman. We'd get unique access into the specifics of what thoughts and processes lead up to taking Trayvon's life. That kind of insight and challenge to racist mentality could have ripple effects that are hard to imagine.
But he can't say that can he? No matter how sorry he could potentially be George Zimmerman can't apologize, can't repent or his freedom is in jeopardy. Really he has to insulate himself, cloak himself in justification & sad old wrong thinking from residual fear of spending years in a cell. He'd become the racist champion & if he ventured off the racist path he'd be steered back by some George Wallace type. This is why we need to move to restorative justice. No, there is no way to restore a life that's been taken. There's no way you can replace a son you shot dead. But there's value in trying to encourage a mental and behavioral shift and allowing someone to do all that they can to work against the kind of pain that they inflicted. I know we're so hurt and angry we may not be ready for this conversation, but will we deny that we If and I repeat IF there were a fundamental shift in his thinking and behavior that has no value, that wouldn't be with hearing and a space for that worth creating?